It's great to love, even greater to be loved!

…and we smell the weekend again!

HAPPY 3 MONTHS CHERRY AND JOEL AND HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY LEDDY!

Hey loved ones, how was your weekdays? Weekdays are not my best friends, time doesn’t stay loyal to you, your health condition comes in the way, and the workload unloads itself to you. I’m not saying I can’t live with that. But sometimes, can’t help but really sit down and ponder, when will this end? Like, seriously will it ever ever come to an end one day where you can enjoy life fully or will the time and energy you sacrifice now (when you are young-er) doubles up then multiplies a lifetime! This thought is scary, to work hard FOR NOW, hey I don’t mind. But if my questions were really answered and it tells me I will have to work as hard (or harder and not less!) until I die, then I’m not sure if I want to do that.

Having said all that, I probably have done some harm (not only to myself) but to those who love me. Everyday is GOLD RUSH. Chillaxing time is impossible. And you have to look good at the same time? Sorry I can’t achieve this especially lately. I’m used to how everyone’s been commenting on my pale face and tired eyes. You cannot conceal that.

I’ve been selfish. Because I want to work so hard, I have my side effects, I have my downsides, and he who cares for me will only have to wait for the bubbly side of me to come back. That hasn’t really happened now has it? It’s been 3 months, and I just want to tell you how blessed I feel to have you in my life..and it will never be the same again if, without you.

Baby, I never thanked you enough for all of the intangible you’ve done for me. I can never and will never want to compare you with anyone because you are one of a kind, have your own judgments and you are very special to me. Yes you are, very special. You are a gifted package. I feel so many things with you. You play many roles in my life and I need them. You have proven to me that this thing we have now is the one and only and will go a long way. Any girl would die for such assurance, my love. So I’m trying to say that I’m actually very blessed. To wake up every morning and to go to bed at night not only thinking of you, but being able to hear your voice..to start and end my day with you brings meaning and makes me want to live everyday. I may have confused you and myself with working hard and everything but I won’t let that come in our way. Sorry for the times I have let you down but you don’t mention, simply because you love me, and I don’t appreciate that enough.

Baby please forgive me.

my personal favourite!! :)

p/s: i understand 3 months is just numbers, but the mention of 3 months indicates how much i have learnt and how much i want to learn somemore and improve. 3 months and counting, that's for sure.

Cherry's Weekend is F.O.C! :)

This weekend, I consider it is given to me FOR FREE! I don’t remember really having the weekends to myself. And next two weekends, I’ll be out there in the jungle again. don’t worry, this jungle has wifi so we are connected anyhow :) So yes, I’m very glad to own this freedom of two precious days, wanna iron out life stuff that has been pretty messy lately.

What’s up, kicking and alive? :D

Trying to make myself as nerdy as possible. This is the final semester being in college before going all corporate or 9-5. Oh, did I tell you I don’t have papers to resit (BIG RELIEF). Everything looks very structured for me, especially the whole deal of going to the UK next year. The Liverpool John Moores (LJMU) officers came to give a briefing, informed us almost everything that we need to know. We are all already well aware of TOTAL 7 MODULES!! That need to be accomplished. Wow. Now how do I nerdify myself. And arrgh the pressure of going backpacking with Marcus!! I want! But unsure of time and money!!

Sabina's Simon Dowell (nope, not typo)

Campaign fever! Major, major. Really appreciate how we escape the environmental topics haha, really if we were to campaign about going green (AGAIN AND AGAIN), we will all puke green. We are all talking about celebration now. Yes you can actually campaign a celebration ;) Think 1Malaysia. What a huge campaign it is. But no lah, we’re not doing 1Malaysia, government’s got a huge budget for it. So after countless meetings, my team and I can’t be any happier to be in charge of the PR exhibition. Totally meant to do this. Always PR-related, never really went out of the PR box in these 4 years of my college experience. On the other hand, im quite curious myself if I were to be part of staging, creative or or..lead a Multimedia Design team, how would I be? No idea but new things are always a good challenge. We’re really into it, at the very least, these cute initial ideas will always be remembered in our later life. Kudos to the PROs, credits to designer Chin Yee..how cute we still believe we are...

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Other than campaigning (which is great enough to occupy us 24-7), we also have our Thesis Dissertation and Socio-Cultural Communications, all the critical thinking. Let me tell you, don’t mind our dark circles, eyebags and pimples. We just can’t help it. My ‘virtual office’ is still running, don’t worry, I’ll do just fine.

This point of life, will I always remember, how I am doing everything, going everywhere, meeting many people all at once. It’s really interesting, I don’t remember how routine feels like anymore. Every day is a variety. Sometimes I fall sick and get quite tired, but I really believe that we should work hard now so we can really play hard later.

There is no doubt how special someone is always on my mind, lovey dovey aside, I have found someone who will keep track of me, and give me that tight slap I need once in a while. He used to say I keep him sober. No sweetheart, YOU keep ME sober. Thank you for everything! I love you! <3

the day someone (really randomly) approached and told us "it's really nice to see you both in love, don't let anyone say anything about the two of you" enthusiastically.

CHERRY MUST SHARE!

I love the smell of my mornings. And something I find so amazing in a baby boy while I was having my breakfast THAT I MUST SHARE WITH YOU. A couple and their little son waiting for the table to be cleaned, the boy got irritated, was all over the mother. The mother said “wait wait, let them clean the table first”. The boy should be 1 year old but he’s genius! So they got a baby chair for him. So I’d assume he can’t wait to get into the chair or something. Wanna know why he was merajuking? THE BOY CAN’T WAIT TO READ THE NEWSPAPER. I stopped eating, eyes widened when I heard the dad told the lady who was cleaning the table for them. He literally calmed down when he was in his baby chair and immediately grabbed the newspaper and his fingers have such great control over the newspaper, I mean come on! He’s just a babyyyy right?!

That moment I couldn’t get my eyes off of him, the boy went flicking page by page. The father would proudly ask “ok boy where is fish?, where is banana?”, the boy knew how to go to the Tesco supermarket ad to point. I was like awwwww that’s so clever of him. BEHOLD THE NEXT THING I OBSERVED!

The father asked, “ok boy, where is AirAsia? Where is Samsung? Which one is Daddy’s car? Yess Toyota, okok that one is Milo, yes..”. The father said that the boy remembers BRANDS and specific products and services. Awesome. I was dumbfounded, really.

I was sooooo impressed I had to take a photo of it, but I had to do it secretly lah.

awed from my view...

Let me just say, this is a different generation altogether. Even better than Millennium Babies like Lionel Boy. One day, someone like this boy and his peers will give workshops, seminars to the older generation on the wonders of things “we’ll never understand” like how some people just never get Facebook and all that today.

The power of branding and marketing. Even babies remember.

As I walked away, the boy was still flicking the newspaper and will only start his breakfast after finish scanning the newspaper. Tsk tsk.

Ok my weekend starts here. Cheers, all!

I want to end this life by saying 'Good Game'

After all that has happened…I can’t help but have a strategy and I will play this game damn well. It’s sad especially when you have to battle, gamble, trying to prove your own family wrong. If only there were proper listening skills, a little more affection and senses. But then again, nothing is perfect so this is my imperfection, you may have known a long time ago, and to me I know this funny pattern they carry, will last as long as they live. Simply because..this is just who they are. No explanation, no compromise. It’s cool by me, if this are the values and beliefs they posses. I just know none of their values and beliefs match mine.

It’s really different today. I did not cry, I was not angry, I didn’t pack my clothes and run. Instead, I faced it, hmmm actually? with no fear. I literally stayed home, planned out some stuff for me and my future. Probably I’m starting to accept this reality check. Especially after hearing from a few best friends, discovering their fair share of family issues, my version aint that bad at all. Nothing is THAT bad at all.

I know and I expect. Keep it coming, they are very typical, expected and predictable. The only difference is, my strategy. Wow true when they say you can’t change others, but you can change yourself. Finally comes into practice for me? I also learnt something. I don’t have to hurt you back when you hurt me. I want you to hurt by YOU hurting YOUR own self because you have made the choice to hurt, discriminate, belittle, trample and shatter others’ dreams, or more specifically your own daughter’s/sister’s.

You have brought me to hell in, out, there and again. What else worst can you give me? Other than you are disappointing, I don’t feel anything anymore about you guys.

p/s: Initially, I was not really this person but guess how have I eventually become? Creative upbringing, good job.

p/p/s: This whole post is applicable during the period of me having OR not having an Indian boyfriend. Ill-treatment applies, loves coming to me for free.

p/p/p/s: I just wanna play my role and read my lines, life really is a performing stage and by the end of this play I foresee a standing ovation, also doesn’t hurt to play my game, I want to end this life by saying ‘Good Game’.

Fuck, I sound really lame, as much as I mean it, I also don’t prefer the sound of it. Ok, will be perfectly fine by tomorrow, and also after my perfect getaway. Weekend’s a bliss! Looking forward! :)

Only I know the weirdo I am

I hate reading my old posts. Of cos I love the content. It’s just that I hate looking back at my set goals, self-promises. Hate it very very much. Maybe I should stop ‘speaking too soon’. But what if it is what I really intend to say at that very moment when I type. Like right now as well. Over the years, no matter how things have changed deep within I’m still the weirdo I am, still seeking for answers to the many worries that has no background whatsoever.

Soft copy or hard copy – it seriously is the same. I write down stuff too. I plan ahead..a day before, a week before, even a year before, and when it takes place, when it’s action time, it totally contradicts so what is the point of planning when I won’t even make it happen, even the closest. There’s another problem. If I don’t write down, do the planning or in this virtual case, if I don’t have my self-promises, I will also feel very very tortured within. You must be thinking, poor thing she must be wasting time on the useless. Wasting time or not, I will still have to do it because it is programmed in me, I cannot escape, it sucks to take it out of me. Maybe not too soon? Slowly? Or maybe never at all.

Same concept to every other aspect of my life. There are many things that are apparently rationally wrong and I still do them. I still do it no matter what, it is already part of my life. Simply put, you know it’s bad for you but you can’t live without it.

Don’t worry, I’m not doing drugs or anything (sometimes just heavy reliance on caffeine). Someday, I too wish that I free myself from this ‘vague must-dos ‘ that is actually harming me. I don’t know from which sudden occasion it slipped into my system but it’s either I continue but make the best of it, or find a way to break the curse. Wish me luck. Told ya, only I know the weirdo I am.

Tomorrow’s first day of college. I consider it my final semester, my final moments in the classrooms, my final episodes of being a student. After this, it is already UK and the real deal.

Sem Break Priorities!

12 days left. what? that's not even 2 weeks. yeah so 12 days more for so many I've planned...what the..seriously, falling sick aint cool cos it totally robbed 3 precious days and all of my could-haves. the timetable of the new semester is even out..you'd be jumping around for a moment...to find ONLY 2 days of classes in a week haha. but pls take note, that's just Lectures, they haven't included the Tutorials lar..

But what to do lah right, not everything goes as planned. To make great use of these 12 days, that is! :)

Priorities...of course catching up on what I've not touched on for long time..

By saying that I mean healthy lifestyle, superduper organized room, cleaning, grooming, catching up with so many of my loved ones, tv shows, downloads, etc. So sad..think driving needs to put on hold due to a HUGEASS recent commitment, will tell you on a personal basis. Hint: property.

The bigger to-dos:

1) Thesis Dissertation to complete til Chapter 3

2) Management stuff, misc stuff, kira kira stuff, tedious stuff with PR course (APR2)

3) Of course my lil virtual office..I still love it..do I need business card? haha..

And am not gonna lie, you do know I'm behind all these Philips Facebook stuff...what's the point of knowing? Yes, of course to support your lil friend Cherry here..:) Basically, it is a Star Search for a well groomed young lady to be Philips ambassador, we're trying to create an awareness that Ironing plays a very important role in beauty and grooming that brings the best of you!

pretty pls....I just need lots of people to join the fan page then will they be aware the wonders of this campaign and Philips steam iron, and the whole contest deal. Would you be so kind, to just check it out? It's all there.

Come on over, show your support : Philips Iron Your Way to be a Star Facebook Fan Page

Thank you!